134.

it's difficult to say when I'll stop
writing about being young and drunk, maybe
when I turn 26 but probably not

it's just easier
to type words like "languid"
and "paralysis" because they're the ones
I've practiced spelling the most

(I still have to use the dictionary
 for others, like "prosperity")

and I don't blame you, or anyone
else, really. I just wish
you had asked me for what you needed
instead of deciding I couldn't give it to you

but I suppose I spent a lot of time
re-writing old stories with old words instead of
reading what you left by the bedside
so it isn't your fault.

maybe I just wasn't done
being young and drunk yet
maybe I never will be, I don't know