136.

just learning that you can't make your ex's parents
love you forever, that you have to say goodbye
to the families you create sometimes
and you have to realize that
you can't be everyone's favorite
all the time, that people
move on in their lives after you're gone from them
and people dislike you or forget about you
just learning things like that, the things
no one tells you about growing up
about what it feels like
to watch years pass under your feet
the calluses that form there
and the constant lack of closure, memories
tucked between your fingers where
you imagined wedding rings might be by now