I Think

I think I’d just like to
stew here
in my own precious
misery
and I will never understand how
self-loathing
and
self-pity
fit hand-in-hand so well

I think I have
lost weight today
my fingers are skinny-looking
and they cannot stop
shaking
(but hey
at least
I look better
this way)

I think it is time
to admit that I
have failed
(again)
smelling of
piss and vomit
scratching the mirror
(again)

I think I will
just wait
for someone
to find me
here