Please Do Not Leave Me (Here

please do not leave me
(here where lights burn into fire
bright and purple leaks across
my eyelids, please) do not
let me keep me here
I do not belong here, I know
I should be somewhere warmer
clear and candle-yellow with you(r
arms around my hair and your hands
inside my braids) I wish
we could but stay
no please, do not leave
me here alone
without and with
fear, not
you

91.

I get drunk too much, can’t see
my feet or feel them walk my legs
from place to step, I get
spiraled out and goddamn
do I get unwound, unpop
my back unlace my fingers
counterpoint my toes

I talk too much, I let
my mouth fall open apart and
sink in syllables I forgot
my place

I stay on the ground
I have watched it coming
closer, I have been down too
long and maybe that is what is keeping
me down, unlooped unroped untied
my corset if I ever wore one

I see too much, I see too

little pulled across my eyes I see
very few sunrises
anymore

perhaps it is this loose
melody, but it was
working, wasn’t it?
it was working I swear it was
working

alas I am
un-